Another day, another effort.

I’ve been gradually working on managing my food intake, especially how many carbs I’m consuming. I feel like I’m doing a pretty good job. My day usually consists of a protein shake with frozen fruit for breakfast, a sweet potato for lunch and something quick and carb free (if possible) for dinner. Tonight I had scrambled eggs with bell peppers and shrimp. Oh, and a banana as a pre-workout snack.

I went for a walk this afternoon as well. 1.83 miles, pushing the stroller, in 40 minutes. I averaged about 21 minutes a mile which is about 3 minutes slower than my regular pace but I had a headache and had just gotten home from work. I’m glad I went for the walk though. I felt pretty relaxed afterward, despite the persistent headache.



Cold Pop, Sweet Brown’s Drink of Choice at 3am

I regularly get a hankering for bubbly drinks and my drink of choice is usually diet Dr. Pepper. With it’s mysterious mix of flavors and bubbly goodness, I usually takes care of that hankering in a quick minute. I know I’m not the only person who chooses diet over regular soda and I never thought about any of the risks associated with it. But today, I came across this article from Prevention magazine. Here are the ones that stood out to me:

The first item on the list, something I had never thought about was Kidney Problems. Drinking more than 2 sodas a day puts you at twice the risk for kidney issues. The cause? The diet sweeteners.

Who knew that diet soda could lead to obesity? Aren’t they supposed to help people who are on weight loss missions? Two cans or more per day can increase your waistline up to 500%. Why? The artificial sweeteners trick your body into thinking it’s eating sugar, causing you to crave more and causing you to overeat. Geez!

Now, did you know that diet sodas contain mold inhibitors? Yeah, they do. Sodium benzoate and potassium benzoate. That’s what those are. But regular soda doesn’t contain these. Do you know what these do to your body? It can cause cell damage. How scary is that? They’re also linked to hives, asthma and allergies. In the UK, the Food Commission says it’s an irritant to skin, eyes and mucous membranes. And we drink this stuff??

Ain’t nobody got time fuh dat!

I’ll be honest, I never knew there were so many side effects of diet soda.

I’ve found a new resolution for 2013, effective immediately. No more artificial sweeteners or diet soda.

Lost Memories Trying to be Found

I spent a good portion of time this morning going through my Aperture photo library and adding keywords to pictures. One of the keywords I used most often was “Progress”. You can probably deduce that this keyword was being applied to past (and current) weight loss progress photos.

As I looked back on the photos, I realized how much had changed. In 2008, my weight ballooned and that’s when I initially did something about it. For me, that “something” was getting a prescription for Phentermine and using the energy from the medication to fuel ridiculous workouts while suppressing my appetite. Of course, I lost in the vicinity of 50 pounds in about 4 months or so. It was amazing. But, then my back gave out and the 50 pounds was back with a vengeance. And it brought friends.

When my back gave out, I was pretty much incapacitated for over a year, and that resulted in weight gain. I finally had surgery in June 2010 and once I was able to walk and move freely again, the weight fell off. I went from about 215 lbs to about 185, give or take 5 pounds thanks to regular walking and Weight Watchers.

It works! It just costs money :-/

Again, I was ecstatic. But, I got lazy. No real excuse this time, and I gained all the

weight back. I also had to cancel my WW membership due to a lack of funds.

Now, it’s 2012. At my worst, I was 235 pounds. I’ve been trying to work on this since the beginning of the year and I’ve lost a whopping 20 lbs. (Can you hear the sarcasm in my voice?) Now, granted, I did complete my first 5K and I’ve been working diligently on getting into some measure of shape with the C25K program, but I can’t help but be somewhat frustrated with myself when I look back on pictures from 2008 or 2010 because I made so much progress and I can’t seem to recreate it and hold on to it.

I wanna look AWESOME naked!

But everyday is a new beginning. I’m slowly getting the hang of this and soon I’ll have the results I’ve had before and I’ll hold on to them this time.

A Little Disappointed/Ode to Daft Punk

Almost 8 weeks ago, I became a runner. Now, you’re probably thinking “One does not simply become a runner. One must endure vigorous training before one can truly be a runner”. Uh, no. Seven and a half weeks ago, I started the C25K program using the app on my iPhone. This was my second attempt at the program. My first attempt was on the treadmill and was a fail but I can’t remember why now. The reason will come back to me soon. Anyway, I registered for The Color Run, launched the app and got to running. Outside. On the pavement. Completely different experience from running on the treadmill.

Anyway, week by week I got better.



Ok, maybe not faster or stronger, but I got better. I was eventually able to run 25 minutes straight on November 1st. Big achievement for me! Then I ran 28 minutes (with a 1 minute and 47 second break) yesterday. Today, I donned my sneakers, hoodie and tights and ventured out into the damp 42˚ morning to run before work.

And I ran…for 10 minutes.

Yeah, from 28 minutes yesterday to 10 minutes today.

My leg muscles cussed me out and my shins began to ache.

I started walking.

Needless to say, I’m a little disappointed in myself. I have another 5K in 12 days and I need to be sure that I can run the entire thing, for my own satisfaction. And that means training vigorously until the big day. On the other hand, I need to know my limits because if I hurt myself, I won’t be running AT ALL. But still, I’m disappointed because I’ve come so far in the running journey and I’ve felt super proud of myself up ’til this point, only to have a bit of a setback. But it’s not going to stop me. Tomorrow, I go to work early so when I get home from work, I’ll probably take a walk and then on Thursday, I’ll attempt W8, D2 again.


Days off aren’t really days off…C25K, chores and more…

Today has been the busiest day off ever. Thanks to DST, I’m super rested, having gotten an extra hour of sleep so I was up a lot earlier than I usually am on a day like today. Started the day with Week 8, Day 1 of C25K (the best running program out there), worked up a nice sweat and then got home to clean house, do laundry, cook dinner, tend to the pets amongst other things…the list goes on and on, trust me.

Why can’t a day off just be a day where I can sit on my couch, relax, watch some TV or chill with a good book? It never happens. But, at the same time, if I had a day off where I had nothing at all to do, I probably would still be in bed and would never have gone for my run.

Speaking of runs, week 8, day 1 consists of a 5 minute warm up walk followed by 28 minutes of running and a 5 minute cool down walk. I actually walked a couple minutes extra at the end so in 41 minutes and 28 seconds I completed 2.43 miles at an average pace of 17 minutes and 4 seconds per mile and an average speed of 3.5 mph. According to the Runtastic app, I burned 554 calories but the Nike+ Running app said I burned 309. I don’t know which one to believe. I paused twice for a total of 1 minute and 43 seconds.

I guess I’m secretly thankful for busy days off.

Back to the chores I go. Next on the list? Folding laundry. Worst chore ever.

Love/Hate Relationships and preparing for 2013

I’m in a love/hate relationship with my scale and it’s the most frustrating thing ever. One day I stand on it and I’m rejoicing over the 5 pounds I’ve lost and a week later, I’m in tears over the 10 pounds gained. Frustrating, I tell you. Frustrating with a capital F!

While I understand that the scale is not the only measure I should go by, I can’t help but get annoyed when I see progress upended by “weight gain”. Especially when that weight gain is just water weight or bloating (and being a woman, I’m subjected to that at least once a month…stupid periods).

This frustration is part of the reason why I changed my blog from Mission SlimPossible to Mission FitPossible. I may not have lost a ton of weight in the last few months and I’m not slim, but I’m definitely fitter. Seven weeks ago, I would have never thought that I could run 25 minutes straight. Or that I’d be registered (and continually registering) for 5K runs. When I started this journey it was hard as hell.

The food.

The constant battle with the scale.

The temptations.

Just one more cookie.

But for every step backward, I take two steps forward to make sure I stay on path.

As the end of the year draws nearer, I’m no where close to hitting the goals that I had set for myself. Rather, these goals have transitioned into new goals once the reality of the situation set in. Life happens and I’ve grown to understand and accept that. All I can do is remain focused on that yellow brick road and I’ll make my way back home.

It’s time to break out of this relationship with the scale and start planning (SMART) resolutions for 2013.

Resolution #1: Don’t get mad at the scale and remember the NSVs (non-scale victories).


13 goals for 2013

I was inspired by Deanna of the Life As The Fat Friend blog…She made a list of her 13 goals for 2013 and I decided to do the same…but I’m having a little trouble with coming up with 13 goals!

I’m not going to reveal what I’ve got so far but I need suggestions.