This is a quick one, but I had to share my experience over the last couple days.
I’ve realized that I’ve developed an aversion to junk food. I don’t know when or how this happened. All I know is it happened. Today, I was feeling ‘peckish’ and went hunting in the pantry for something good. Of course, I went straight to the Halloween candy stash (yes, we still have Halloween candy) and got two mini Almond Joy bars. Now, let me tell you, Almond Joy is my absolute favorite chocolate bar. The combination of chocolate, gooey coconut and almonds is just awesome and it’s one of the few chocolates that doesn’t give me migraines. Usually, two mini bars would be perfect to take care of that itch but tonight, it just seemed to be too much. I could barely manage one and resisted the urge to spit it out and promptly put the second bar back into the bowl. Now that I think of it, maybe I should have spit it out.
Then a couple days earlier, again that feeling for sweets came upon me and I grabbed a couple vanilla cookies with a glass of milk. After about a minute or so, I turned around and put the cookies right back into the packaging and sat on the couch with my cup of milk. Strangely enough, the thought of eating the cookies made me ill.
So, I brought this up to my husband and he suggested that it was all in the mind. But I’m wondering whether it truly is mental. Maybe it’s actually physical, considering how much I’ve changed my diet over the last two months. Or, perhaps it’s a combination of both. I’ve committed to making all these changes this year and reaching my goals (finally) so maybe my mind is working with me rather than against me. There have been times when I’ve felt like my mind is also working against me, though.
On New Year’s Eve, I had Chinese take out for dinner and I just wanted to keep going and going and going. Even though I was full and I felt somewhat sick to the stomach, I just wanted to continue eating. This is somewhat reminiscent of my food past which resulted in my being at the weight I am now. Now, I won’t say that I have a food addiction, but I definitely have a food problem, emotional eating being just part of it. That, I know, if mental.
Anyway, where I’m going with this is that weight loss and gain are both mental and physical. You can take care of the physical but if you don’t also take care of the mental, then you inevitably may end up back at square one. It takes just as much work to take care of the mental as it does the physical, but it’s worth it.