Obesity: Mental, Physical or Both?

This is a quick one, but I had to share my experience over the last couple days.

I’ve realized that I’ve developed an aversion to junk food. I don’t know when or how this happened. All I know is it happened. Today, I was feeling ‘peckish’ and went hunting in the pantry for something good. Of course, I went straight to the Halloween candy stash (yes, we still have Halloween candy) and got two mini Almond Joy bars. Now, let me tell you, Almond Joy is my absolute favorite chocolate bar. The combination of chocolate, gooey coconut and almonds is just awesome and it’s one of the few chocolates that doesn’t give me migraines. Usually, two mini bars would be perfect to take care of that itch but tonight, it just seemed to be too much. I could barely manage one and resisted the urge to spit it out and promptly put the second bar back into the bowl. Now that I think of it, maybe I should have spit it out.

Then a couple days earlier, again that feeling for sweets came upon me and I grabbed a couple vanilla cookies with a glass of milk. After about a minute or so, I turned around and put the cookies right back into the packaging and sat on the couch with my cup of milk. Strangely enough, the thought of eating the cookies made me ill.

So, I brought this up to my husband and he suggested that it was all in the mind. But I’m wondering whether it truly is mental. Maybe it’s actually physical, considering how much I’ve changed my diet over the last two months. Or, perhaps it’s a combination of both. I’ve committed to making all these changes this year and reaching my goals (finally) so maybe my mind is working with me rather than against me. There have been times when I’ve felt like my mind is also working against me, though.

On New Year’s Eve, I had Chinese take out for dinner and I just wanted to keep going and going and going. Even though I was full and I felt somewhat sick to the stomach, I just wanted to continue eating. This is somewhat reminiscent of my food past which resulted in my being at the weight I am now. Now, I won’t say that I have a food addiction, but I definitely have a food problem, emotional eating being just part of it. That, I know, if mental.

Anyway, where I’m going with this is that weight loss and gain are both mental and physical. You can take care of the physical but if you don’t also take care of the mental, then you inevitably may end up back at square one. It takes just as much work to take care of the mental as it does the physical, but it’s worth it.


#MotivationalMonday: New Year, Renewed Missions

It’s almost 2015. Do you know what your resolutions are?

Source: http://motivational-monday.com/

My resolutions are usually the same but my focus improves year after year. The new year is motivation for me to improve upon myself and my life has been steadily moving upwards since 2012. I know that it’s only going to get better.


Goals for 2015:

1) Achieve AND MAINTAIN my goal weight;

2) Consume a 75% pescatarian diet (this will help with my cholesterol);

3) Blog at least 3 times a week about engaging/interesting topics and gain more followers while retaining the existing ones;

4) Exercise at least 3 times a week;

5) Read more non-fiction in an effort to broaden my mind.

These may sound like generic goals but these are the things that are important to me and things that will make a big difference in my life once I achieve them.

If you haven’t decided on what your resolutions are, I came across a list of resolutions inspired by TED talks and I’ve definitely been inspired by a few of them!

What are your resolutions, missions and goals for 2015?

Emotional Eating Is A Thing

I’ve been a Weight Watcher. And for the time I was on the plan, until when they changed the points system, I loved it. When the points system was changed, my weight loss stalled for months and at that point, Weight Watchers was a waste of my money. So, I quit.

And after seeing the holiday commercial, I’ll never go back.

If you’ve not seen it, check it out.

As someone who suffers from emotional eating, I’m not a fan of this commercial. Regardless of what some people think, emotional eating is a thing. It’s a disorder. For me, I had a trigger – my dad’s death. And I’ve never really been the same. After he passed, any time something bad/sad/upsetting happened, I turned to food for comfort. Sometimes, I’d turn to food to celebrate happy times too. But it was mostly during the down times. I would eat any and everything (but my food of choice was junk food) and I’d eat until I was sick…and keep going. Of course, my weight ballooned but that didn’t stop me.


Eventually though, something hit me and I had a realization: I was feeding my emotions and the emotional eating never TRULY made me feel better. So, I made a strong effort to defeat it. I’ve done a pretty good job there but sometimes, if things get especially stressful, I fall back to food.

So, here’s my beef with the Weight Watchers commercial. I feel like it basically says “Emotional eating is ok. Go ahead and eat your feelings! Pay us money and after the holidays, we’ll help you lose the weight.”


But anyone who has struggled with their weight knows that it’s Not. That. Easy. Especially if you suffer from an eating disorder. You’ve got to deal with triggers, society, temptation, emotions, etc.. And it can take months or years to finally lose that weight. And during that time, we’re pumping money into Weight Watchers’ pockets. What’s going to happen when some poor soul hears that commercial, thinks it’s ok to give emotions food and then feels the subsequent failure when they can’t lose the weight despite joining a program and counting points?

Now, I’ve read comments on this video on YouTube. Some people say that people are taking it too literally, that it’s meant to be funny or irony or whatever. I don’t see it that way. I hear someone telling me to eat as much ice cream and chocolate as I want when I’m dealing with emotional pressure and then Weight Watchers will help me with the hard part. What do they consider to be the “hard part”? The emotional eating or the weight loss? Honestly, they’re both pretty damn difficult.

Emotional eating is when a person uses food as an attempt to control, monitor, and cope with negative feelings or thoughts. Because emotional eating typically results in overeating, it can often lead to poor self-esteem, unwanted weight gain, and obesity. If you recognize emotional eating patterns in yourself, treatment can help you overcome it. The best approach to stop emotional eating will include treatment for the underlying emotional causes and factors related to emotional eating patterns as well as treatment for behavioral issues.

Source: https://www.mccallumplace.com/emotional-eating.html

Can Weight Watcher’s help me with the “underlying emotional causes and factors related to emotional eating patterns”? Oh, no? Didn’t think so.

So, Weight Watchers Marketing team? You may want to think about the way you market your product because emotional eating is a lot bigger than you think.

Another day, another effort.

I’ve been gradually working on managing my food intake, especially how many carbs I’m consuming. I feel like I’m doing a pretty good job. My day usually consists of a protein shake with frozen fruit for breakfast, a sweet potato for lunch and something quick and carb free (if possible) for dinner. Tonight I had scrambled eggs with bell peppers and shrimp. Oh, and a banana as a pre-workout snack.

I went for a walk this afternoon as well. 1.83 miles, pushing the stroller, in 40 minutes. I averaged about 21 minutes a mile which is about 3 minutes slower than my regular pace but I had a headache and had just gotten home from work. I’m glad I went for the walk though. I felt pretty relaxed afterward, despite the persistent headache.


No appetite, fatigue, heartburn, and Thanksgiving around the corner

I’m so exhausted *yawn*

For the last week, I’ve been supremely fatigued, with no appetite, and super severe heartburn. When I say severe heartburn, I mean SEVERE. Practically anything I eat is giving me the burn. Water is giving me heartburn! Ughhhhhh!

On the plus side though, that’s been helping me manage my food intake. Lol. No binge November has been successful (so far)!

Fatigue is killing me. I’ve been up since 4am (heartburn) and couldn’t get back to sleep. So, for the first time in a week (because of the fatigue combined with the weather and a cruddy work schedule) I went for a walk today. Two miles, 40 minutes. Felt good, but now I’m worn the heck out. At some point today I’m gonna make my way back to bed.

Speaking of No Binge November, Turkey day is so close I can smell it! I’ve got so much to do today. Grocery shopping needs to be done, brine needs to be made and the turkey needs to be marinated, the house needs to be cleaned a little. I’m pretty sure that if this heartburn and lack of appetite sticks around I won’t be eating too much on Thursday. Here’s the menu…or at least part of it:



Sweet potato casserole

Macaroni and cheese

Green beans

Dessert? Chocolate cake and pecan pie.

It’s gonna be awesome and binge worthy but I won’t be binging!

Is it payday yet? aka, Trying to Stick to Goals on a Budget

Man, I hate being broke and having to stretch my money. Yesterday, I made $24 stretch soooooo far, but it wasn’t necessarily for the best of food choices.

$24 at Kroger got me:

– a dozen jumbo eggs;

– a 12 count bag of frozen biscuits;

– a LARGE box of frosted flakes;

– a gallon of 2% milk;

– one polska keilbasa sausage;

– a pack of fajita sized tortillas;

– a carton of chicken broth

– a pack of razor blades (hey, a girl’s gotta shave her legs).

So, I went home last night, stuck my last 6 chicken breasts in the slowcooker with the broth, cumin, cayenne pepper, onion powder, dried minced garlic and set that bad boy on low for 8 hours. Needless to say, that chicken, combined with a little cheddar and wrapped in the tortillas was lunch for the hubby and me today and will serve lunch tomorrow as well. By the time that’s done, it should be payday. 😀

The point here is that even though I was broke as all hell, I managed to stay (relatively) healthy with my meals. Breakfast was 2 biscuits and eggs – plain but filling and it was tasty darn it. It’s all about the choices you make.

I mean, do you want to spend $20 on fast food that lasts about 5 minutes or do you want to send it on enough food to last at least 4 meals? Seriously, which one is more economical?


Regardless, I ‘ll be happy when payday rolls around on Friday so I can buy some food.

(Check more money/food comparisons here).

The Man With The Iron Fists/Let’s go Packers!

I’m 4 days in to No Binge November and it actually hasn’t been too bad. The first couple of days were especially easy but then, yesterday, we went to the movies. The hubby and I split a large popcorn and I had a large diet coke but between the two of us we only ate half the popcorn. So, in reality I only ate a quarter of it…right…? On another note, why are theatre popcorns so HUGE?! It was literally bigger than my head! I mean, that’s just ridiculous!

After the movie, we head out to Old Chicago (after being ignored at Cracker Barrel, but that’s a story for another day) where I enjoyed the Fisherman’s Catch: 2 fried cod fillets, 6 fried shrimp, fries and cole slaw. I nixed the cole slaw, and ate half the fries, fish and shrimp. We followed that up with a cookie and ice cream. As you read this you’re probably thinking “Damn, that’s a ton of food!” But in reality, I had a really balanced day.

My day started at 6am when I started getting ready for work. I worked from 830am to 530pm (I work retail so I was on my feet all day) and on top of all that, I didn’t go to bed til midnight. Pretty well balanced day.

Now, I’m sitting at my local sports bar enjoying some food, football and family. Decided to enjoy the ribs and sweet potato fries since this is likely going to be the only meal I have today.

How’s your No Binge November going?

PS: The movie we went to see was The Man With the Iron Fists. If you are a Quentin Tarantino fan, you MUST see this movie. It was AMAZEBALLS!

PPS: Let’s go Packers! Let’s go!