Last week, I went to the doctor for an annual. She walked into the office, introduced herself and said “You have a goiter. Let’s get you an ultrasound to make sure it’s not serious.” Man, this doctor is efficient. But I was still thrown for a loop. I’ve had this swelling in my neck my entire life and never once has any doctor told me that it’s a goiter and suggested that we get it checked.
So that afternoon, I got my ultrasound done. The next morning after fasting for what felt like forever, I went for a crapton of bloodwork – cholesterol, blood sugar, thyroid hormone levels, iron levels etc.. I swear they took 50 vials of blood and 3 gallons of urine.
Fast forward to today. I got a phone call a couple days ago telling me to come in to discuss my results since they found nodules on my thyroid. The earliest they could fit me in was today so, for the last day and a half I’ve been stressing out. Long story short, I have high cholesterol, am prediabetic, have iron deficiency anaemia and am scheduled for a biopsy of my thyroid nodules next Thursday.
I’m freaking out.
I’m afraid of having cancer. I mean, I have a family. A one year old. Nothing can happen to me. I know that 95% of thyroid nodules are benign but my dad died of cancer that seemingly came out of nowhere. Then the cholesterol and the prediabetes. My dad had diabetes too and that was no fun. I’ve been doing research on what I can do. And I know it boils down to exercise and weight loss but it’s not as easy as it sounds.
I don’t even know what to do right now. I’ve been doing research on different lifestyle changes that I need to make and it’s so freaking overwhelming. I mean, everything has sugar! The cholesterol piece isn’t going to be too difficult for me, though. So I guess that’s one less thing I need to stress out about.
At least I can say I started taking steps before I got these details today. I haven’t had a soda since the first, and I’ve not had any fast food or pizza. I’ve definitely NOT been consistent with working out though. People keep telling me that I look like I’ve lost weight but it’s hard for me to relish in that knowing what I know about what’s going on inside my body.
I’ve got to keep reminding myself…baby steps.